Thursday, January 15, 2009 - Day 70

Quote of the Day: Actions lie louder than words. – Carolyn Wells

Breakfast – breakfast burrito

I know it isn’t what I should be eating BUT I needed something really fast today. I couldn’t think of anything better. It was egg, cheese and a flour tort.

Lunch – Healthy Choice soup – Chicken Tortilla

I really love soup and should only be eating them and salads. But some days, like today, I just can’t get it together to have a coherent thought let alone try to maintain a diet. Still, I think I’m doing pretty well since previously I would have eaten the kitchen sink. LOL!

Dinner – Salad bar with balsamic dressing, lots of veggies

I went out to play pennies and one moment I’m not at all hungry and the next starving. What’s up with that? Some days I just don’t understand what’s going on with me.

Snacks – goldfish

Steps – 3421

Exercise – Not a lot of steps but not a lot of motivation. Again, I just don’t get it. I haven’t been able to exercise much this week nor lift weights like last week at home. Motivation is at a low right now and it could be a lot of things. Maybe EPIC, maybe writing or maybe just life.

Journal

First, I have to comment on the fact that I just can’t believe I’ve kept with this for 70 days. Other than writing and my family, I haven’t kept to anything for this long. Maybe this is a new leaf.

Yeah I know it’s a bad thing BUT I just couldn’t seem to get it together today at all. There are strange things happening to my body as well as the general apathy. One of the things is that again, I’m swelling up like a stuck pig EVEN though I am getting up and walking around at least 5 minutes every hour. I hate whatever is happening to me again because I have so much water in me I know I’m going to weigh at least 15 pounds more when I go to see Dr. G and it’s moments like these where I want to chuck it all in and just give up.

Then there’s the fact that I’m breaking out everywhere. My face, my arms, my back and some of those are places I never did as a teenager. I know menopause can really screw up a person but this is going to drive me crazy. I’ve always fluxed 10-15 pounds when my period would be. Maybe this is the PMS without the actual period. Again, another thing for Dr. G tomorrow.

And I can’t. I MUST get healthy. This isn’t an either or situation any more. This is a MUST. I am not getting younger and I personally, don’t want to die fat. I know thin is relative and I’ve never really said how thin is thin. Well, when I was talking to CR the other day, I came up with the magic range. I’d like to weight somewhere between 135-142 and while it seems an impossible goal right now, if I can just stay the course until this passes, I will be good to go for another few pounds. Sign. I will get through this, I will.

Hope this helps someone! It does me a little as now I can see how weird it all is. LOL!

Have a great day!

Lynn

Wednesday, January 14, 2009 - Day 69

Quote of the Day: Strong reasons make strong actions. – William Shakespeare

Breakfast – Shake as normal with strawberry probiotic and fresh strawberries.

I really enjoy the shake better when I add one of the small yogurt type things to it. I’ve used the Dannon and the Promise heart version. I have really notices a difference when I don’t use them. So I guess they are helping me in the long run.

Lunch – Chips & salsa, Chicken fajitas

I was so good when I went out to lunch with CR. She pointed out that the fajitas would be better and she was right. But just that gentle prodding put me on the right track but I fear it won’t matter later because I am already craving something I don’t know about yet. That’s why I went to Mexican food. Must have been nervous about us going to the Erotic Heritage Museum but it didn’t matter as all went well.

Dinner – Salad with chicken, almonds, veggies and Balsamic vinegrette dressing

This didn’t do it for me. I noticed that something was changing this evening. I’m getting that starved, caveman like attitude where I want to eat everything in sight because I won’t know where the next meal is coming from…if this is an instinctual carry over…I wish it could be gone. LOL! This isn’t fun at all!

Snacks – Handful of salt and pepper chips and I didn’t want those until 9p!

Steps – 4351

Exercise – Hopped on the treadmill like it was any other day. Of course, I didn’t really feel well at all and didn’t really want to BUT I had to do it! At least I’m getting the fact I have to do it no matter what! And my free days at Anytime Fitness are over and I’ve definitely decided to join! They were over yesterday BUT since I only went three times last week, it’s time I started the real deal. LOL! Still, I have to take it nice and slow otherwise, I won’t do it. That’s one of the reasons I’ve kept up with the walking at least 5 days a week. Otherwise, it would be a bust.

Journal

Things were really going well until I got home. Then I don’t know what happened. Yeah, I was having a situation BUT that kind doesn’t normally make me want to eat. It was like a switch was suddenly on and where it came from, I just don’t know at all. And it was soo bad, when I did go look for a snack there was nothing. So, I grabbed the DH and made him go with me to the grocery store. We got what we needed and came home. I had my chips and it satisfied the urge. Hope it carries through till tomorrow.

Yes, these times are troubling to me as well. But the important part is I’m truly trying to get a handle on them and figure them out so they aren’t an obstacle in the future.

What are you doing to help yourself? I hope everyone is doing something on their weight loss journey that helps!

Have a great day!

Lynn

Monday, November 10, 2008 - Day 3

Quote of the Day: Whether it is the best of times or the worst of times, it is the only time we have. – Art Buchwald

Breakfast –Shake per recipe with strawberries.

Woke up really late since I couldn’t sleep last night. Yeah, one of the things that Dr. G and I are working on is my sleep issues as they related to menopause. And that’s a whole other issue. Sigh. I know I’ll be taking a nap for sure. I just don’t understand what triggers my eating or rather overeating. Still, it’s not eating bad things but sometimes too much like the rice crackers. I know that’s it’s going to take a few days but I do know I’m already starting to feel better overall but still have a way to go. I’m just hoping I can write today.

Lunch – 2 chicken kickers, 1 piece pizza w/green peppers

Just didn’t feel like cooking myself with two bottomless teenagers in the house. It was easier to order pizza. The boys ate all the kickers other than the two I had as well as a whole pizza. How can they get away with that? I understand it’s a metabolism thing but I guess I don’t understand why it slows so much when one gets older. I guess I’ve got to get mine revved up a lot to lose this week. Just don’t feel particularly well today.

Dinner – ground turkey taco salad with avocado, 1 tablespoon light cheese, 1 teaspoon light sour cream

I have had a horrible headache since about 5 p and haven’t been able to get rid of it all day.

And my family has made it worse by arguing all evening about various different things. My 16 yo always wants to know everything even though it might be none of his business whatsoever. He drives his poor father crazy and won’t stop for anything. One day he’ll do something that can’t be undone.

Snacks – banana, rice crackers, cottage cheese

Steps –1774

Exercise – Today was a day off due to my headache. It doesn’t abate but I am very tired and will try to go asleep anyway. Sigh. This is a definite something I cannot fix and at this point I’m not even sure if it can ever be fixed again. I sure do hope things get better because I don’t know what will happen.

Journal

Nothing more to say. Headache is bad.

Took supplements before I went to bed.

Hope everyone has a great day!

Lynn

Sunday, November 9, 2008 - Day 2

Quote of the Day: We don’t know who we are until we see what we can do. – Martha Grimes

Breakfast –Protein shake w/strawberries

I woke up about 6a because one of our cats, Sam, decided she wanted to crawl under the covers. I should have stayed up and exercised or something but I turned on the TV and decided to fall asleep for a little longer. For some reason, I seem really tired and I’m not sure why. For some reason I am really tired and I don’t know why. Forgot my supplements last night and maybe that’s the reason I’m tired, I’m not sure but hope to figure it out.

Lunch – (at Chili’s) chips and salsa, cheeseburger queso (5 bites), chicken fajitas, guacamole, 3 flour torts ( I really should have asked for corn!), lots of Ice Tea.

Sunday is family lunch day. Today it was decided to go to Chili’s and we had a good time doing so! Took a blood sugar for the 16 yo, who is diabetic and knew that I was out of control, it was 113 an hour after I finished my shake. Shake much better today because I used strawberries. Very relaxing Sunday as I watched TV, wrote and watched some boys. Trying to change it at least 1 thing at a time.

Dinner – Santa Fe Chicken soup (small amount of rice), added more chicken, more fresh red and orange peppers, more onions and lots more spice, 1 can of Mountain Dew Soda

Had fun putting my soup together. I think I surprised my husband when I told him I wanted to cook 0 I love to cook but all the negative comments from the peanut galley made me change my mind. Besides who doesn’t like their husband to cook for them. Stopped doing a lot of things because of complaints. We’ll see what happens now. But change is coming – this much I know.

Snacks – 2 banana, apple, tuna, rice crackers,

Steps –3426

Exercise –treadmill 1.5E, 2.3 mph, 21:30 minutes (8:30p)

Lower back area still hurts when walking – starts after about 10 minutes in and I’m wondering if splitting the time between two sessions wouldn’t be better. I might try it tomorrow. Did what I normally do and watched TV while walking.

I did drink a Mountain Dew but I needed the extra caffeine because the boys are here and I need to make sure they get to bed at a normal time.

Journal

Took supplements before I went to bed.

Hope you all had a good day!

Lynn

Saturday, November 8, 2008 - Day 1

Quote of the Day: You make the world a better place by making yourself a better person. – Scott Sorrell

Breakfast –Protein Shake per recipe. Added blackberries.

Dr. G is right as it doesn’t taste bad at all BUT it is very bland and doesn’t have the sweetness from the berries like I expected. I’m wondering if adding honey might help it. The DH suggested that we mix berries since the BBS aren’t that sweet. Will email Dr. G to ask for sure.

Woke up easily – no lingering hot flash. I also woke up early today to get ready for booksigning.

Lunch – 11:30a – ½ herb chicken salad wrap, ½ philly cheese steak, lots of water

A few spearmint lifesavers (7-8) and okay, I was at a book signing and probably not as good as I should have been. BUT book signings are hard and I need to be flexible. It will all work out!

Dinner – 5:30p – 1/3 plate Nachos, 1/3 basket garlic fries, couple of bits of artichoke dip and garlic bread, 2 cups of coffee 6-8 oz of beer, 2 cups of water. 8:00p – 1 cup green beans, 3 cup brussel sprouts with butter, 1 liter water

After the book fair, we decided to go to a brew pub to relax. I had a great time with my author friends. I was really relaxed and glad I had some social interaction. The book signing was a lot different than we expected and next time we’ll have to prepare. Was still hungry when I came home so decided on lots of veggies to fill me up.

Snacks – 1 apple, 1 banana

Steps –2253

Exercise –I didn’t have a lot of a chance for exercise today BUT what I did manage to do was at least 5 minutes per hour of walking around the book fair. It was more like 10 average as some hours the walking period was longer and sometimes shorter. One good thing was that the home situation was really good when I got home. The guys were very calm and happy! Life is good.

Journal

Still new at this, will work out the kinks as I go.

Hope everyone has a great day tomorrow!

Lynn